On Dunkin Donuts and aging…

“You look better now than you will ever look again,” says a female author in an NPR interview with Terry Gross.  I’m in the car, listening to an audio book on writing.  Leaning into the rear-view mirror, I consider the lines on either side of my mouth, the dark circles under my eyes, the way my hair has its own say and think, “This does not bode well.”

I get it though.  Most of us look at last year’s photos and unless they were taken while we were falling out of bed, hung-over…we can appreciate how ‘good’ we used to look.

This reflection began earlier in the evening while at the local Dunkin Donut drive-thru.  The barista is getting my change.  He’s barely sixteen and is cute in a way he will never be cute again.  I say, “May I have my receipt please?”  He lifts his head out of the register and turns toward me.  His face is a deep shade of red and his eyes bulge like balloons about to pop.

“Did you just ask me if I was single?” he stutters as I reach for my change.  Our fingers brush and we both jump back as if splashed with cooties.  The coins fall to the pavement.  “Receipt, receipt,” I say.  Then, “Just keep it!”

All the way to my appointment, between spits of laughter, I try to imagine what he was thinking … what he is probably telling his friends.  My face colors, but it is as much from attacks of the giggles as from any embarrassment.

At sixteen, I too worked at Dunkin Donuts.  Back then, the uniforms were not comfortable t-shirts and jeans.  Girls wore hairnets and uniforms – short, pink dresses.  Many an older man would order donuts from the top tray of the window case, enjoying the necessary stretch of the waitress, as much as any jelly stick or glazed.  We girls scoffed at their behavior, these men gross and ancient, though they were probably younger than I am now.

Like most sixteen year olds, I yearned for the future, couldn’t wait to grow up.  I tried to imagine being forty-three years old when the world spun into the 2000’s.  My friends and I figured it would be like the Jetson’s – life in outer space, phones with viewing windows, robots to pour our wine.  We couldn’t envision it except through cartoons or Stanley Kubrick.

Now, the year 2000 has come and gone.  I will be fifty-six in a few months.  I eat well, exercise and most days, feel pretty good.  I suppose I am “grown up”.  Forty-three sounds young to me now.

And most days, I do not mind my aging.  Yet when I think of that young barista, how he thought I was hoping he was single … I start to laugh all over again, and I laugh so hard, I cry.


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One Response to On Dunkin Donuts and aging…

  1. dale says:

    Carole Corcoran told this story how she was walking down the street in rather short skirt, her very long streak blonde hair adorns her… A young 20 year old says a flirtacious comment to her and she turns around. His eye bulged out and he said I am so sorry mam, I thought you were younger. tee hee

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